Hope is all there is sometimes.
I’m tired of holding you back from true happiness. I hope you have actually reached that stage with me. At least I won’t feel so much of a douchebag. I’m sorry I’m not perfect. If i was, this would have never happened. I know you been wanting this fro some time and you didn’t have the courage to do it cause I would not take it so well. Truth is, I’m not doing so great. But I’m sort of glad that you’ll be happier without me. I would hate myself for keeping you away from that. I wish you would be happy with me, but we all know that won’t happen. You’re perfect and I wish you knew that, no matter how many times I tell you. I’ve fallen for you so hard and now I can’t get back up. This sucks.. Sorry for being so sensitive at times, but that’s me. I hope one day you’ll miss me and love me the way you once used to. I gotta face reality and learn that things change and so do feelings. All I know is, my feelings have not changed at all. Actually, grown larger and larger. I’m attached to something that’s not there anymore. Your love for me is not the same anymore, idk why. You say it’s you, but I think it’s me. I’ve honestly gave my trial of fixing things, but no matter how much I try, your mind is set and you can’t get those butterflies that you used to have by just looking at me. I think you’re so cute and can’t bare to see myself and my life without you. asdfghjkl;’ I’m going crazy. Can’t believe this is happening. Just want you forevers, but I can’t have you. I know there’s a part of you that wants to be with me, but you won’t love me the same. Sadddest guy on earth right now. Though you’re close to me, I have never felt so alone. All those plans that i had with you might never come to be. I always tell you that I’m going to marry you, but you never believe me. If I could I would have married you already. You’re so perfect and I just.. can’t believe that you not mine anymore. It’s no wonder you been acting weird so lately. I had a hunch but I didn’t wanna think that. I honestly thought our relationship was perfect but I am wrong. You never seem to be happy.
